Friday, November 28, 2003

I HAVE BURNT MY UNIFORM!!!
I was so cool! Fire dier punyer lah besar! That was one pair of pants and two shirts.
My schoolmate passed by and he was like "Eh! kau bakar? Boleh ke? Nanti nak collect results cammaner?"
"Ay cakap dah tak muat, abis cerita"
First insignificant step to kebebasan
FREE i am but i do not know what to do with this freedom.
In the process of foraging for a job.[baru only look thru recruit section]
Going to ask around. Most likely the job would be in the mosque or petrol station. [weird choices aint it?]
Well most require chinese bilingual tak mandis so i dont qualify.

Back to hari raya events.

2nd Syawal......
Mother had this farwell dinner for Foo Pee Pee [the school principal].
It was on a ship lasting from 6 to 10.
The younger Kasbans were like bored arh pasal tak dapat keluar [2nd day seh]
So like Maiza, my sister nak pergi Rumah mak besar again[we went during the afternoon when my mom was there.] to play or something.
I voice out for Adeel, the youngest because he also wanted to go.
Dah plan tau nak pergi Parkway parade or something but i had to tag along to jaga deedeel.
I guess it was kinda of expected but we "bumped" onto cik tipah, cik lah, and cik norli at the house.
So we in the end tagged along to rumah Tok long, another house we have been.
Picked up Kiffy, my 2nd last brother, and went places.
Terpaksa tumpang tumpang ah.
So the 2nd day of hari Raya was saved!
After that hang out at S11 yang ayam panggang dier takda.
Quite fun ah. then tidur rumah cik lah.

3rd Syawal
Pukul tiga baru bangun then me and Khabir went to my house.
On the way i burnt the uniforms at the tong cina sembahyang.
Then after time passed, we went to rumah cik tipah.
The highlight was the mini conference we had at around 12.
Old stories of the Cik Connie family[that was what grandmother was known as] came pouring out and etc
It lasted until 1am.
Then went rumah cik lah sekali lagi.
Lepak at Kakak Kirah's room with Khabir since Kakak kirah went out Hey Singaporing.
Watch tv [and merepek Uncle Curtis] and then sleep.
Since the next day was Friday, I woke up at 9 then feeling polite guest i made Kirah's bed after apparently sleeping on it.
Everybody was asleep then and i did not want to kacau anyone so i left quietly.
[Please dont be offended or anything, i was not trying to be rude]

4th Syawal.
After jumaat at Darul Ghufran, i went back home to sleep.
Night time, Cik Tipah and Cik Norli came [with their families of course] to our house.
Then they went to Punggol while we prepared to go bedok south.
Picked Hakeem up at Melville condo [or what ever] at simei then went to block 72.
Rumah Cik Rafi Lawa as always.
And the view fuuyooo.... boleh nampak town and Park way parade. 22nd storey aper!
Dream house......

Think i got a fever.
Si pahlawan putih demam.......

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

First day was alright.
Got to eat lots but nothing really special and macam outstandingly delicious.
Oh ya, my table runner/kain samping got compliments from Kak In, Cik Tipah, basically most of the mak ciks.
[Well i AM the more art orientated McGyver -able to make do of anything and everything.]
Went to the same houses every first day u know....Grandparents father side, Grandmother mother side, Japanese nenek, mak enab, Pak long, Nek Lina etc.
Strangely I couldn't be bothered bout how much i would get during the time i was in the house but more about where we would be going after this house cause my father has a habit of not telling us and very bad with desicions and etc.
After the whole thing i cant believe i shouted out macam orang giler.
Everyone except me maiza and mom went up. we were dusting out the car.
Suddenly it came out.
"WAH! KALAU HANIZ NAK BALIK, FATHER WILINGLY ANTAR DIER. DIA ANAK RAJA MANER" and etc.
I bet everyone up there heard it. "BIAR DORANG DENGAR" i shouted when my mom asked why.
I mean come on ah, haniz doesn't do anything to contribute to the welfare of the family. HE IS JUAT A LEECH SUCKING UP MY PARENT MONEY. Thruthfully i cant wait for him to die! Dah buat orang rasa hina.
Now i dont noe whethe to sabar anymore or not. Whethe t o just be rude then compromise always to his demands.
Allah yang maha pengampun, tolong lah aku yang desak ni.

Anyways part of my discussion with mom before all this was why Tok Long's keturunan semua putih putih and lawa lawa and handsome handsome.
They dont look arab nor indian nor chinese nor indonesian or whatever. They are very i dunno how to say. You readers should just see them then you will noe. It really is a mystery to me. And tak fair. Maner boileh ader orang lebih handsome dari aku? Anyway really kalau aku dapat kahwin dengan one of the girls anak anak akku semua akan kacak dan/atau berseri. Anyway not as if its not goin to be because i am already handsome.

[DAMN! curb that ego of urs irfan]
PAhalwan putih

Sunday, November 23, 2003

EDUSAVE FOR ALL CHILDREN!!!
Mom said she was responsible for writing to the PM last year about this. Hmmm......

Yesterday was quite dissapointing since i did not go to rumah cik tipah. She was not in the mood basically. So i spent the whole day [and night] on my tie and dye. Ya i have red fingers now. [MERAH SAGA MENYALA!!!!] At 12am i receive a called from Khabir. He invited me to his house to chill and do stuff. I was like i cant make any promises since my mom baru tidur. The old ones were all staying up and doing stuff that night. Father was listening to old songs on the computer, maiza was on the phone with her friend discussing school choices, mom was outside tukar plant pots and everything and i was trying to make good use of everything we had. [after all that baru khabir called]. Knowing it would awfully be ke-demeritan in my moms eyes i didnt go. I spent the whole time after that dying my cloth until 4.30. Then i went to sleep. Did two dyes so i have one more left to do. Planing to do in a while.

Yup i still havent burnt my uniform. Ala.

Besok Hari Raya.
Cant wait to see you.
Pahlwan Putih

Saturday, November 22, 2003

Man!
That was definately refreshing. Went to geylang serai cc for dikir. I was even thinking of not going since i was really very tired in the afternoon. Then Adi called. [First time seh] I said i dunno out of politeness. So i did some tie and dye sewing and the went to sleep. Got the energy after the sleep so i went off after buka. Maiza got her PSLE results. She got higher than what i got but it was what u called not quality As. 3As and a B. I got 3Bs and an A. but the difference of our results is only 14. Apa dah jadi? She wants to take my school. Sumpah merepek. Anyways mom made Kueh tart today. I didnt help at all. [haha] usually i would be stirring the jam or inserting the jams into the dough of a mangkuk. Only my dad and my mom tau cepit the bunga at the side of the kueh so its a very slow process. I tried my hand at it lots of times tapi i guess i m not "gifted" enough. Besok poulak i got a date with kek lapis zaiton. Going to rumah cik tipah to help for my mothers one [as in for my house]. So easy, sapu butter on the previous layer, pour in the mixture then rata kan. Every three layer or so you have to arrange in the prunes. I think cik tipah makes the best Kek lapis in the World!!!!!!! Its quite a slow process thats why cik tipah wants me to help since there is usual a long wait for the layer to brown. [its begining to sound like a recipe].
Anyways nak bawak the tie and dye tomorrow so at least boleh habiskan. kena tarik lagi. lepas tu preserve. den dye den preserve den dye den preserve den dye. then have to potong/pull out the pulled strings and the preservation and then have to iron. very long process. so if not nice very dissapointing.
DAH LAH NAK DO STUFF
Pahlawan putih

Friday, November 21, 2003

Berikan ku seruling
kan ku mainkan
lagu perdamaian, melodi keinsafan
kan kubawa irama keimanan
pada jiwa yang kekontangan
pada ucapan yang berselindungkan kepalsuan
pada pergerakan yang masih memerlukan pimpinan.

Perdamaian, keinsafan dan keimanan
beserta kebahagiaan dan kemelaratan
sudah dibaja, disirami
di waktu kelahiran;
malangnya,
kita mencari, meneroka
di seluruh pelusuk
di bawah lindungan langit.

Berikan ku seruling
kan ku mainkan
lagu kelaparan, melodi kesengsaraan
di depan kaum melarat
agar kau sedar keadaanmu
hidup segan mati tak mahu
kekayaan milik bersama.

Berikan ku seruling
kan ku mainkan
lagu ketakutan, melodi kematian
yang lahir menuju nisan
di sanalah kelahiran.

Bought the seruling for $5. The guy wanted $13, he practically raised the price. After much bargaining, the skill i learnt from my trip to Lombok, he said okay.

So the Os dah habis what now?
From my prelims, i managed to qualify for 3year pre-u course[CI].
Dunno wherthe i want to go.
Or i could spent my time working....
Oh ya btw, my comp like has sound now.
Playing games and etc would be more interesting now.

A person who has concerns about somebody else isnt bearing grudges.......
It happened before cant it happen again?
Pahlawan Putih

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

Start being selfish....
That's a new one hahahahahahah!
What a mockery [of your self].
So the metamorphosis has begun.
Good luck in your life. [Well i get front row seats]
One more thing, our parents are not blind.
Watch your step.

Enough of scaring. Lets get back to me.

So yesterday i did it. I left a pile of flowers at Raihana's place. Had to sms her before she found them. Tbe flowers had to be the specific ones and the florist didnt have any that day. Terpaksa jalan all the way to depan polyclinic nyer shop. Anyway now everything is okay now. Minta maaf zahir and batin a bit too early but its for the good of our relationship.

Today i m having Biology. Quite scared because the Chemistry paper was damn easy. So now who noes how the paper would be like. Tomorrow last day. Dah plan semua nak bakar my uniform at the rusty cina sembahyang tong. Oh ya together with my shoes. Then its off to geylang at night. Last year i used cik rafi's camcorder. This year its going to be hidayah's which is digital- i m gonna have so much fun!!!! i think..

Ah before i forget, ah nevermind..........
Pahlawan putih

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

Got a paper later at 2.
Mordern World History.
Sigh.....

Yesterday was quite okay. Went to the Fallis residence for break fast. Couldnt eat mutton soup in marcaroni [wait its the othe way round: marcaroni in mutton soup] so i ended up eating Roti John. Had my fill though. After that was Joke sharing session initiated by Lutfi. His was really lame. Still Father should have just keep his mouth shut and i mean it. Sampai i had to tell Mother before she could Solat. So Mother did tell Father off. I mean its Lutfi. Dont take advantage when his parents are not there. Tak kan dier tak kecik hati? Grow up! Anyway, back to the joke part.
"You and i form what?" "Uniform!" Uncle bakar lah yang bilang kite. Dari his school days. Hahaha...fun times. After that went to the kitchen to test kuehs and etc. The Cinnamon [k i dunno how to spell that] cookies were the best. Never knew Kayu manis is so um.....manis. During the whole time I was u know tak tetap. Going here going there, tengok ilhan. Couldnt put him down. He would crawl back to me. Just Adore him.

Somebody's bothering me.
Its irritating that i cant sleep just thinking about this person. Macam kenapa all of the sudden? I plan to take action to douse the flame in my mind. Confront the person and tell the truth. [no its not refering to you] I hope everything turns out fine.

Also my "Twin" sister Raihana, like angry at me for apparently a misunderstanding. I got to get things better before Friday so i m planning to do something tonight. Like Friday "Friends & Co" are going on a field trip to Geylang [typical aint it?] to celebrate the end of the Os. About the plan, that one i m not sure because she has to be at home for me to excute it.
Actually it just giving flowers. Last time i bought her dengan another friend Bunga 80cents at Century Square [kononyer spontanius gift] Its daisys i think and anyway she told me it was the first time she got flowers. SCORE! [heheh main main lah] Anyways being "twins" we got a lot in common like our mothers car is Honda stream [hers: silver mine:black] We are highly allergic to seafood [crabs udang geragu u name it] and some more ah. malas nak type and anyways i got to go and BATHE!......

Pahlawan Putih,
Masih belum mandi........[Jeng Jeng Jeng]

Friday, November 14, 2003

Now i dont know what is happening.
Everything is getting very complicated and fish! i dont understand.
So what is it?
Brothers or not?
k.......

Had a semi fantastic dream tadi.
Dia wave kat aku lah! Kalau happen in real life aku dah excited gilernye.
Aku akan merinduimu!
The dream happened in my school. [i dunno ah it was a combination of Tampines primary and my beloved Esss.
Tah aper ada baby. [it was big and fair skinned]
WEIRD or STRANGE?

Gotta to study gotta to study.........
Pahlawan Putih

Thursday, November 13, 2003

Yesterday marked the day I ended my art life in secondary school!
No more research, no more late nights, no more blackened hands!
I did my piece on dikir because i actually promised myself that i would do one.
To me it was great, maybe even my greatest piece of the four years.
Now i gots to prepare for one hell of a week.
So many papers so little time.]
Dont get distracted irfan.
Insya allah.

I m so okay with it. maybe things will get better. Tak kan you want me to start right? Remember i m okay with it. so start anytime soon......


Geography.....
Pahlawan Putih

Saturday, November 08, 2003

Assalamualaikum!
Dah lama tak BElogg.
Been doing my papers.
Here's the summary...

Maths P1 - it was easy that it seemed kental. P2- susah sia! Such a drainer
English P1 & 2- i can really say. Not very confident i will pass. [padahal selalu speaking london]
Social studies - i pass on this one
History Paper 1 - moderate as i only left one question quite unfinish. [usually its one whole source based qns]
Malay - Alamak, punye lah senang. I especially enjoyed the Ucapan and compo i did.[was in a good mood]
Funny thing i wrote quoted from Alam nasyrah in my ucapan. [sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kesenangan]
Insya allah i will pass the next 6 test.
This coming week i have only one exam, art.
The rest are concentrated in the next week.

Semalam i went for dikir.
It lasted only for about one hour.
Then we went walking around bazaar Geylang.
Ya twenty people or so.
Imagine the complications.
Kene stop sekejap and stuff.
Then finally the jalan as a big group thing ended when the Younger ones [excluding me] decided to get lost willingly.
So that means i was merantau-ing with Adi, Dapi and his girl.
I got to see Shahirah and her cousin and Jamal and Lydia from my school.
Spotted a shop selling seruling yang tepinye. [$12 lah. Penipu. I go back and tawarkan sampai $4]
After an hour of walking around, I finnaly understood the meaning of "Pergi geylang"
It is too go tiring your legs and making them limb by walking step by step coz there are too many people who like you are just walking around with no agenda, except maybe being hopeful to find your jodoh cos the whole mat [motor, tapered etc.] and minah population would be there, while withstanding excessive carbon dioxide fumes from dendeng and ayam percik stalls that basically sell burnt stuff. Lets no forget that we have to endure people who are paid to blabber nonsense on loudhailers and step on trash that people didnot finish.
Sigh.

Review of the past week k?
K so i have watched a whole years worth of hindi movies in two days [seperate]
I did this on wednesday the 5th and Friday th 7th.
What did i watch?



-Hum dil de chuke sanam
-Raja hindustan
-Ishq
-Mohabbatein
-Kuch-kuch kota hai.

Each around three hours straight. [imagine the penat ness]
Semua Rashidah kasi pinjam. [thanx again!]
Review?

-HDDCS is like Devdas obviusly because Aishwarya Rai [my long distance girlfren] stars and production of LEELA BHANSALI [like the name tapi macam wanitanyer].l Lagu! superb. Hated the ending [cause you see Ajay devawhatever muke ngantok lah. Macam nak mati. Why did Nandini go for him when she could have gone with me? there fore i only watched the first CD repestedly.
-Raja hindustan was okay. Like the songs. Main reason rashidah suggested to me was because Amir khan was in it.
Dier really good ah especially in making a Geram face.[you now when his eyebrows like are 90degrees apart. [liked his apperance in lagaan. Ah Mr tan Said my face looks like his. Dier tengok kat Channel I? funny man]
-Ishq. macam very tiring. So many twists. Actually too many. Again i hated Ajay. Hate him more pasal Dier husband Kajol. Kajol lah. My ex.
-Mohabbatein is a load of crap to me.I mean coincidentally three friends had mohabatein for another three girls. k then? Dah habis...............only thing i liked is that there was a special apperance by my girl.
-Kuch kuch kota hai was GOOD! Really good storyline! Pasal the Anjalis. Kajol was in [YAY!] And Sharukh too [Boo!] Damned entertaining.

Songs i like from the movies....



Aankhon Ki Gustakhiyaan
Movie: HUM DIL DE CHUKE SANAM
Singers: KUMAR SANU, KAVITA KRISHNAMOORTHY

Lyrics:
Aankhon Ki Gustakhiyaan
Maaf Hon
O Aankhon Ki Gustakhiyaan
Maaf Hon
Ek Tuk Tumhein Dekhti Hain
Jo Baat Kehna Chaahe Zubaan Tumse Vo Ye Kehti Hain

Aankhon Ki Sharmohaya
Maaf Ho
Tumhein Dekhke Jhukti Hain
Uthi Aankhein Jo Baat Na Keh Sakin
Jhuki Aankhein Vo Kehti Hain

Aankhon Ki
Aankhon Ki
Gustakhiyaan
Maaf Hon

Kaajal Ka Ek Til Tumhare Labhon Pe Laga Loon
La la la..
Haan Chanda Aur Suraj Ki Nazron Se Tumko Bacha Loon
Hmmm..
Oh Palkhon Ki Chilman Mein Aao Main Tumko Chhupa Loon
Aa..
Khayaalon Ki Ye Shokhiyaan
Maaf Hon
Har Dam Tumhein Sochti Hain
Jab Hosh Mein Hota Hai Jahan Madhosh Ye Krti Hain

Aankhon Ki Sharmohaya
Maaf Ho

Ye Zindagi Aapki Hi Amaanat Rahegi
Ay Hey
Dil Mein Sada Aapki Hi Mohabbat Rahegi
Ay Hey
In Saanson Ko Aapki Hi Zaroorat Rahegi
Is Dil Ki Naadaniyaan
Maaf Hon
Ye Mere Kahan Sunti Hain
Ye Pal Pal Jo Hote Hain Bepal Sanam To sapne Naye Bunti Hain

Aankhon Ki
Aankhon Ki
Gustakhiyaan
Maaf Hon
Sharmohaya
Maaf Ho


Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Movie: HUM DIL DE CHUKE SANAM
Singers: KAVITA KRISHNAMOORTHY, KARSAN SANGATHIA & CHORUS



Lyrics:
Ye Nimbooda
Ay Nimbooda
Ho Ho Oo Ho...
Dhinak Dhinak Dhinak Dhinta

Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Arre Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Arre Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do

Arre Layido Layido Laydo
Arre Layido Layido Laydo
Nimboo Layido
Ja Khet Se Hariyala Nimbooda Layido

Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda

Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Arre Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do

Arre Layido Layido Laydo
Arre Layido Layido Laydo
Nimboo Layido
Ja Khet Se Hariyala Nimbooda Layido
Nimbooda Layido

Aa Nimboo Layido

Ah Ha

Deewanon Ki Buri Nazar Se Bachna Ho To Sunlo
Deewanon Ki Buri Nazar Se Bachna Ho To Sunlo
Arre Katto Katto Nimboo Tez
Chori Se Sar Pe Kaato
Phir Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Kya Jaadu
Karega Dekho
Ki Buri Nazar Vo
Khatti Hoyegi
Phir Char Raste Pe
Vo Utar Giregi

To Layido Layido Laydo
To Layido Layido Laydo
Nimboo Layido
Ja Ja Ja Khet Se Hariyala Nimbooda Layido
Nimbooda Layido

Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimbooda

Arre Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Nimbooda Layido
Aa Nimboo Layi Layi Layi Layido

Itna Sa Hai Par Hai To Rasila
Chakha Tha Bada Ta Hai Chabila
Nimbooda
Iski Khushboo Se Bhi Lalcha Jaata Hai Ye Mann
Rakhde Zubaan Par Do Bas

Lekin Chaahat Mein Sajna Sajni Ko
Lagti Hai Ek Duje Ki Nazar
Tab Un Mein Aksar
Hoti Hai Meethi Takraar
Nimbooda Bole Hai Yehi Pyaar

Hurr..
To Layido Layido
Haan Layido Layido

Meri Suni Saheliyon Jaake Zara Layido
Chhota Nimbooda
Layido

Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimbooda

Arre Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Nimbooda Layido
Haan Nimboo Layi Layi Layi Layido

Hey Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimbooda Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimboo Nimbooda Nimbooda
Nimboo Nimbooda

Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimboodaa Nimboodaa Nimboodaa
Nimbooda

Arre Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Kaacha Kaacha Chhota Chhota Nimbooda Layi Do
Nimbooda Layido
Nimbooda Layido
Haan Nimboo Layi Layi Layi Layido

Pardesi Pardesi Jaana Nahin
Movie: RAJA HINDUSTANI
Singers: SURESH WADKAR, BELA

Lyrics:
--Male--
Hmmm..

Pardesi pardesi
Pardesi pardesi jaana nahin

--Female--
jaana nahin

--Male--
Humein chhod ke

--Female--
o o humein chhod ke

--Male--
Pardesi pardesi jaana nahin

--Female--
tu jaana nahin

--Male--
Humein chhod ke humein chhod ke

Pardesi pardesi jaana nahin
Humein chhod ke humein chhod ke
Pardesi mere yaara vaada nibhaana

Humein yaad rakhna kahin bhool na jaana
Pardesi pardesi jaana nahin

--Male--
Mujhe chhod ke mujhe chhod ke
Mujhe chhod ke haan mujhe chhod ke.


today long Post.
Sorry ah, just wanna make up for the past week.
Pahalwan putih